7/Addy is bruised and battered

These past few weeks at LandDesign have been a test of my soul.

I have been working on my courtyard site for Leah. If I haven't run through this yet, Leah is one of three principals, and she normally works with hospitality and retail - both things I haven't touched very much. I'd also like to point out that Leah has a sign in her office joking about how she's tough but honest. To hang that on a wall is actually embarassing to me because it means she owns it. She's the worst. 

The whole time I've been working on this project, she's been so rude and unhelpful. Kathy would have actually taught me something and worked through things with me - Leah? Leah knew my wings were clipped and still threw me out the nest. She was like here's a site. Get me concepts by the end of the week but then gave me half a week and was very set on a concept she had in her own head???

I have come up with like 6 concepts and 10 mini renditions of important areas in this site, trying to please her and she would never like what I was doing, which is fine. It's fine. But she would never say anything, she would just scoff or make funny little noises and so I'd ask her what her thoughts were and then we would get a little further. On top of that, she does CAD sheet set up and rendering so much different than Kenton and so I kind of trial and errored my way through it - mostly error. I was taking work home, I was not sleeping, I was literally losing my vision and it was ROUGH.

This is the concept presentation of my work I need to present to our client. I am showing you the whole thing just to show you how much work was done for the beginning concept phase. + They scheduled my meeting for when I am in Charlotte, though, and so now, I don't even know if my hard work will pay off. 

Whatever. 

Some up close shots for you. It's weird to fully render beginning concept design ideas and label them with detailed information. I actually kind of feel like it might be too intense for the client. Like what happened to show them slightly messy drawings so that they feel comfortable to ask for changes? 

+ I am not particularly proud or excited by this work but it exists and I can read again so I WILL be calling this a win. I am looking forward to not feeling so yucky or physically sick about this. I actually think I am so upset with Leah that I feel gross and dirty. Like the negativity is contaminating my soul and there was a moment when I couldn't wash it off. 

So yeahhh. 

I got officially moved to Leah's team this week and will be moving desks in time for our new intern!!!! Her name is Sophia and she's from Arkansas. I am very very very excited to have somebody else here to go through this mess with! I am a little bummed that I will be across the office from her but hopefully we can just be friends. Everyone will get to meet her on the 16th but I'll be out of town that day, so I get to meet her when we go to the charlotte office together! I am really looking forward to it! 

I am also looking forward to taking my first ever day off next Friday. My little brother is graduating!!!

Here's a picture of us from when we were little just because I am feeling nostalgic

Jack graduating means, for the first time, I am going home. I think next weekend will be a good hustle and bustle of family and friends and parties and good food and even if its super busy, I can relax and shake off this 9-5 work weight I carry.

That shit gets heavy yk? 

I guess I hope you don't feel it too... I hope y'all are all doing really well and that y'all continue to tell me about it through the blogs because I thoroughly enjoy them and I enjoy you guys. (I am sorry this one was a little more of a rant) 

XOXO 

Adelyn Rush