5/Addy starts to hear voices
Last week, I got put on like 5 things at once. I enjoy having work wayyyyy more than not so I was excited. Makes the hours pass by faster FR. The most fun part was I was officially introduced to sketchup and enscape. I made a gate (I know your jealous of my skills but get a grip) It was really nice to actually understand how everything works with the exception of layers and flying around. I'm having a hard time getting used to cad, photoshop, and sketchup controls all at once which makes me look like an actual tool. I am definitely hoping to embarrass myself less in the future.
I also was told to finalize and review my planting
narrative from a while back.
I was really proud of what I had so far, and I wanted them to tell me, "Addy, this is perfect and so pretty, just like you, and we want you to do all of the graphics forever and accept this hefty pay raise."... Knowing that those were slightlllly unrealistic expectations I was genuinely terrified that they would hate it. My brain can't balance into a middle, realistic option, I don't know why. Caroline has never been rude but I was given absolutely no guidance for this at all except to take precedence from phase one and inspiration from another projects packet. I now have 31 pages of me rambling on about plants. Probably just as bad as me rambling on in this blog.
Whatever.
I met with Caroline at the beginning of this week and basically she had a lot of notes but was really impressed with what I had come up with and made a meeting for me to go through it with Kenton - the boss. I am ecstatic and a big fan of this week. I like being the center of attention in these meetings. BUT ALSO!!! This week was the week I got to go on my first site visit!!!! I got my hard hat and my land design labelled vest and was literally one of two women on the entire property. I LOVED IT.
What I didn't love, though, was during this trip I found out they have an entire group chat about me. Drake let it slip. I knew something had to be happening because 1, it makes sense to make sure your intern is doing the right shit and 2, because people were being very suspicious and whispering. I'm not a fan of that one. The girls who sit behind me are really sweet but they LOVE to whisper and now, every time I hear it I get so paranoid. Anyways, them having a group chat kind of pissed me off because they're all talking to each other and no one was talking to me.
Speaking of no one talking to me... I do. I have started an embarrassing habit of talking to myself. I think its because this is my first time living alone and I have to say I am not a fan. It feels almost psychopathic how quiet it can get in my apartment so I constantly play music over my record player or am facetiming someone while I do whatever. It's also why I am so so glad to have made friends and started actually having plans. Weirdly, I have been categorizing them. I do tennis with Olivia, coffee with Darby, lunches with Cate, drinks and walks with Adrianna.
Tonight, there's an art walk downtown in the art district. They always have cool stuff like that and it makes moving here easy. Still, I can't help but wish we had stuff like this in BR or maybe a few more of you were here so we can have fun studio nights out. Last night I actually dreamt we were hanging out in the studio and it felt like first year all over again.
Miss you guys xoxo
except Arielle and Andrew. See you guys later.
#talktoyourselfitsok#addymaconlocation#tennis#andrew#arielle#dallas
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Deleteaddy mac! that planting narrative is beautiful. i want to come see you :')
ReplyDeleteThanks Chlo!! And you should! It's so fun here!!! I went to a bookshop you would have died at the other day
DeleteLove love love the graphics!
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